Of course people want to have backup. Also I would like to have backup at the end of the day. But I have to choose - whether to have backup or whether to break out from the routine and do something! My current life is so meaningless and boring, that I just have to change it! I don't have anyone, because of whom I should (or would want to) stay in Estonia (except my sister, but we will keep in touch anyway). I kind of love my profession, but I don't like the company I work for - it's too small, and I don't like the bosses (i.e. the way, they are managing the company and people). I only like my programmers, I work with. I have really good team - and that's why I have been working there so long at all. But I can't continue like this, only because of my sister and some programmers! :) It's my LIFE, we are talking about. It's not just one day, one week or one month - it's LIFE. And it doesn't last forever. So - CARPE DIEM!!!
And - I want to change the world! Despite of my age, I haven't lost the dream, that I can give something from me - and with my contribution I will change people's lives and the whole world with it. I want it! And if somebody wants something strongly enough - he/she will most certainly attain it. I believe in it. And even if I won't accomplish my goals - I will at least have the knowledge, that I have tried. I think, it's better than only dreaming and doing nothing.
And if I know, that there is someone on standby with the helicopter - I'm not afraid of anything and have the courage to go everywhere - knowing, that I have an angel watching over me! :)
(from letter to C)